Daddy's goodbye

I'm not ready for a world so cold.
A world where people lie and hurt.
I'm not ready to be alone and left behind because no one here wants me.
I wasn't ready for goodbyes so how could you, even though you always warned me one day you'd be gone...
I didn't think it'd be this soon.
At one point I hated you but love was still there.
When you died I felt nothing not even despair.
I felt no love, no warmth like I use too....I felt no happiness or hatred.... I had no feelings...
I wasn't ready for goodbyes...
Watching you lay dead as people held me.
Forcing me to see your dead corpse knowing I just wanted to flee and not face what seemed like a nightmare.
All I could do was run, since I wasn't strong enough.
I wasn't ready for goodbyes...
I tried to be strong as I watched you die, yet I just sat in my room and held the pain inside.
I use to cut myself to wake up but it never changed the scene I was in.
I wasn't ready for goodbyes...
Daddy why'd you have to die?